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Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Thanks Webster.

Webster's dictionary defines the word average as: A level that is typical for a group, class, or series. Stop. Stop now. I know what you are thinking. What a TERRIBLE way to start a blog post. I couldn't agree more. But really, I think I just put myself to sleep.

Average is how I feel like I am often described. "You're an average student." If I had a dollar for every time I was told that I think I could buy the freaking Eiffel Tower...or maybe just a lot of baguettes. I'm never the kid in class with the 99 on a test, but I'm usually not the one who gets a 30 on the test either (...that was only ONE time). I AM an average student. At first I hated that because in my mind average is usually forgotten and not important. But, that my friends is what my mama calls, "a lie from the pit of hell."

I think for me I begin to subconsciously think that God doesn't have time for the "average" people. I get stuck in my mind that God only focuses on the super smart super important people. You know...those people we all secretly hate who get 500 likes on their instagram (kidding). I start to think God will use only them because they are not what Webster defines "a typical group or class." What a bunch of lies. Every single person God creates has meaning and by NO means is forgotten by God. Whether you are failing school or doing fabulous, He has called YOU. He made YOU perfectly the way he wanted you. Quit questioning God.

He didn't just put people on this earth for kicks and giggles. He is going to use you and me, but the moment we start to doubt that is the moment we get overly focused on what the world says about us. It doesn't matter if the world defines you as average. Who gives a rat's butt...(thought about using another word...then thought eh better not.) I have this feeling God is going to be so frustrated if we waste all our time here focusing on what others think, as oppose to what He thinks.

Honestly, not one of us is "qualified" to be used by God. However, if you are a Christian, you are able. We gotta stop having a pity party and pull our big girl pants up. Start each day with this, "God I know it is only you who makes me able. Show me today how you can use me to further your kingdom." BOOM.

He calls the people who think they are not qualified. He WILL use you if you let him.

For now, I will wait each day to see where God wants to use me. How dare I begin to get frustrated that I am the way God made me. If the God that created every single aspect of the UNIVERSE wants me to be average then by all means, i'll rock the "average student" title. I don't deserve anything God gives me. The fact he gave me a brain to think with is a blessing. I am fully confident that God knows what He is doing up there. So honestly, I think i'll survive being called average.

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me... For when I am weak, then I am strong."
        
         2 Corinthians 12:9-10



Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Concourse Hours.

Do you ever have a moment that describes your entire life perfectly? Maybe that one thing you say or do and you walk away thinking how that single moment pretty much summed up your entire life. For me most of these happen walking down the concourse to class, and I quickly come to the conclusion that as always...this is as good as it's gonna get (thank you Mia Thermopolis).

Let me explain. Usually when you are walking to class many others are also walking to class. So the odds of me walking past someone I know is oddly high. Well actually wait, half of the time I think I see someone I know and make eye contact with them for just long enough to realize it's definitely not anyone I know.

I kid you not many times I have started to wave and MID-WAVE I realize once again, I have never seen them before. Let me just describe to you what my mid-wave looks like...it's that awkward half smile where you don't show your teeth and raise your hand up to wave, but right when you realize it's a stranger, you drop that hand like Beyonce' dropped her new album. Awka-awkward.

Just to snowball off that story..then there was the moment I was walking to class and I saw a girl I actually did know. She was walking right by me. She waved. I waved. Things were going smooth. Until I went to say "Hey! How are you?!"  (...as if she is going to say "Terrible my dog died" in 10 seconds?) and instead of actually saying it, I mouthed it...we were 5 feet away from each other. Son of a nutcracker. WHY?! NO WORDS CAME OUT, but my lips moved! I walked away and immediately wanted to turn around and yell "I can speak I swear!"

And those are just a few of the awkward encounters I have had...sooo there's that. But the more I think about it the more I love these painfully awkward encounters. I truly think it is God's way of saying "Laugh a little and don't take life so seriously." Walking to class or to take a test can be such a mood killer. Rarely do you see someone pumped to go take a test. It's funny to think about how stressed we get before a test. I mean yes, tests are important, but when you look back at life are you gonna think "Man...I remember this one test." No, I would bet big bucks you won't.

So to me, these awkward moments are good for the soul. I think God is cracking himself up in Heaven watching me walk down the concourse. Gosh I'm so glad God has a sense of humor. I love to think about how it's the days like today when I have a test and I'm not feeling to peppy, God knows how to lighten the mood. So... next time you do something that is so awkward you wanna curl up in fetal position, just laugh it off and thank God for the little reminder that life just isn't meant to be so serious.